It’s been a semi-steamy week here in Thailand. Overall the weather has been just great. Cool mornings. And while many days still find the 90s (F) the coolness of the morning sets the whole day in better place. It feels like there is alot going on my life lately… with the big “end of the year” ball rolling at work and with my time in Chiang Mai.
With our school year ending in a matter of weeks, the new school year starting the beginning of May, and changed Visa policies making it more challenging for teachers to get Visas, my employer has already hired teachers for the new year. On more than one occasion I’ve met the “new faces” getting a tour of our office space, including my replacement. Just another stark reminder…as I have chosen to leave after this school year… that the end is coming.
Even though I have been traveling for 5 years now, with heaping servings of uncertainty along the way, transitions are always difficult for me. I am clear it is time for me to leave, but there is always some apprehension as I depart circumstances that in many ways have been “home” with more uncertainty waiting on the other side. It often moves my mind and body into a tailspin. But, just the same, it also fun and exciting to wrap-up one place and head in a new direction.
In some ways things are a bit smoother at work. Our big English Fair is complete which had our lunch and class times bustling with singing and dance rehearsal. Although I tried to be light about the whole “dance performance” thing, at a school that takes singing, dancing and performing fairly seriously – it was at least a little bit of a big deal. It was Friday night when the fair was held and all the classes took their turns performing on the big stage – professional lights, sound and all. My students’ first dress rehearsal was – a little rough. But after a few more last-minute rigorous practices, they did a great job! It’s amazing how them getting on stage made me more nervous than being on stage myself. During the performance where was I? I was the geeky teacher to the side of the stage meticulously mouthing all the words and doing the dance moves. When they were finished it was big relief and fun to share that moment of happiness and success with the students.
Some completions here in Thailand are already coming to be. I taught my last “2-skills” class last week. At my school our classes are divided up between “4-skills” classes that we see every day and “2-skills” (speaking and listening) that we see just twice a week. I have 6 “2-skills” classes – so a total of twelve a week. These classes are larger (about 44 students or so) and fold into the regular English lessons taught by a Thai teacher. While all my students are great, happy bundles of energy- collectively they will give you a run for your money. In some ways these classes are fun because they are less serious, more light-hearted. Lessons are generally simple and taught in a way that is fun and easy to digest. The challenges come with the sheer number of students in the classroom and the low-level of English comprehension. So, while the students may like you, they don’t understand most of what you have to say – and perhaps some “selective hearing” too. At any rate, the “2-skills” classes were both my joy and challenge this year with a great big dose of enthusiasm and energy (not necessarily directed towards me or learning) that was sometimes fun and at other times hard to digest. Of course finishing anything is bittersweet… it is still “something” to be complete with the lessons on that journey.
However, the year isn’t complete yet. We still have individual speaking tests to complete (over 230 students for me total!), reviews and final tests to go and then a few weeks of teacher wrap-up. In all honesty, while there are many things I have appreciated about my time in Thailand, there have also been a number of things that have been challenging. A few weeks ago I had a spontaneous “heart-to-heart” with one my supervisors. What unfolded was my clarity of how rich this time has been for me. I could feel the bounty and how much I have changed shape, grown and expanded from living and teaching here and riding the huge wave that is this bustling respected local Thai school. And for that, I am so grateful.
And with that I will say good-bye for now. Back to tending to my post-work haze – doing my best to glide comfortably in the current of my latest transition.
How are things in your world? It’s always good to hear from you!
-Featured image above, bridge construction “Thai-style” over the great Ping River.